It’s been almost four years I think since I sat down and wrote a song, beginning to end, in one day. Shoot, I’ve only written one song in the last four years! But I wrote one tonight. In about an hour. Out of nowhere. Maybe depression hit the reset button on my brain. Or my spirit. Or both.
Here’s the rough first draft of “Sing” (words and music and copyright by me).
Verse 1:
In this brawl between the empires
Of our good Lord and the Liar
Will you stand, please stand with me
Right now I’ve faith to take it
But oh, when they come to break it
Will you pray, please pray with me
Chorus:
And we’ll stand and pray
‘Till the dark gives way
And then we’ll sing (sing, sing)
Yes, we’ll sing (sing, sing)
Oh, we’ll sing (sing, sing, sing, sing)
Verse 2:
If doubt and shame conspire
To steal away your fire
And leave you cold, I’ll stand with you
Repeat Chorus
Bridge: Hallelujah, sing, sing
Hallelujah, sing, sing
Hallelujah, sing, sing, sing
We’ll sing
Verse 3:
In this brawl between the empires
Of our good Lord and the Liar
Will you stand, please stand with me
Chorus 2:
And we’ll stand and pray
‘Till the dark gives way
And on that Day we will sing (sing, sing)
Yes we’ll sing (sing, sing)
We will sing (sing, sing)
Yes, we’ll sing (sing, sing)
Oh, we’ll sing (sing, sing, sing, sing)
Amy Savage says:
Nice!! Isn’t that what part of our purpose on this earth is? To stand, to pray and to sing with each other? I like it. Can’t wait to hear the music that accompanies those life giving words!
Just read a blog post today that said “where there is darkness, void, emptiness, the Spirit is hovering and covering, speaking life and light”. I love that He uses us to speak life and light to each other so that in the end..we CAN sing!
elijah says:
I usually don’t like lyrics when I read them, but I like these.
dean says:
i can’t wait to (one day) hear this! i’ve been keeping up with your “beggars fortune” saga… just hasn’t seemed appropriate to comment on such personal, excruciating details of what you’ve been through, especially since i have no personal frame of reference to empathize through.
but i do want you to know i’ve been inspired, and moved to prayer for you shaun.
may God continue to pour out grace, mercy and blessings on you and yours…
Cindi Mathys says:
My prayers now begin each night with “Dear Lord, Thank You that Shaun is feeling better. Please keep it that way!”
Deirdre says:
Streams of mercy…never ceasing….CALL FOR SONGS OF LOUDEST PRAISE
which is what you are doing.
God bless you. and thank you for sharing the darkness with us, as well as the light.
Cindy says:
And you continue to be a blessing to all of us.
Thank you, God, for your strength, wisdom and comfort. Amen.
Grovesfan says:
Can this be my battle cry too? I NEEDED this. Thank you again for using your gifts for His glory.
Beth
Jason says:
Very nice!
ToilingAnt says:
Thank you. I can’t wait to hear the song.
I’ve been following your story with great interest because I too have periodically fought depression (and anxiety). I have only recently realized that it crops up fairly regularly- every year or two- but so far has always had different triggers. Once was almost completely spiritual, another was spiritual *and* emotional, and this last time around seems to have a significant physical/hormonal component. (All that to say, there’s no magic bullet or formula for handling depression, because the circumstances and causes can be so very different for each person.)
If nothing else, my own struggles with sanity have given me a renewed sense of compassion for suffering people, and an added ability to embrace the broken areas of life without seeking the black and white, cut and dried, “quick fix”. Thanks for sharing so candidly your own experience, and the ways God has shown himself strong in your life. He is faithful, he is faithful, HE IS FAITHFUL.
Tyson says:
Yeah, looks good. Let’s hear it!
Morgan says:
good stuff. praising God for the new song he’s put in your heart.
maretta says:
A friend sent me here to read this song. She thought it might encourage me. She was right. I am struggling through my story as God is peeling away the layers. There is so much shame, unbelief, and so many lies. “Egypt” looks really good to me, however I know I can’t go back, even if I think I want to. God does not give up territory He’s taken. I do know that the body of Christ is standing with me and praying with me even when I don’t feel like I can do either. Thank you for these words.
Rebecca says:
AMEN!! Thank you for sharing your story – it has really opened my eyes to what loved ones dealing with this are going through. really great lyrics – how often we need that!!
standing and praying with you
Rebecca
Kelly @ Love Well says:
Yes, I will sing with you.
Like Dean, I haven’t commented on the Beggar’s Fortune series (yet) because I felt, well, almost like words would cheapen what you were saying.
But I’ve been praying deeply for you and Becky. Praying walls of protection around you, praying grace over your heads, praying joy to flood your souls. Joy unspeakable. The kind that only comes from seeing God’s light shine against the darkest night.
pat says:
YES!
Mike Waddle says:
Awesome Shaun…
A couple of months ago you sat in my office before a worship service at CFC. You mentioned that it’s been years since writing, but writing and teaching were two of your heart’s greatest desires. God is now blessing you in a wonderful way by giving you the desires of your heart. I know what it’s like to try to stand in depression – one needs help… I’m standing with you bro… Blessings
Misty says:
Thank you for sharing! Can’t wait to hear the song. Awesome!
Vicki in NC says:
I’m a regular reader but rarely comment. During your “away” time I had a feeling something dark was going on, and I prayed for you during that time.
I’ve spent a lot of time on the dark side of despair, so maybe it was just a sixth sense. Praise God you’re back to the light of day.
I love the lyrics to your song.
Cheri says:
Thank you for sharing your heart with us here. You were missed and prayed for and will continue to be prayed for. Loved the inspiration of the song.
Larry says:
Can’t wait to hear you sing it, brother. I’m glad you are coming out on the other side. I am coming out on the other side of a tough time and had a great prayer time with a close friend of mine this morning. It’s great to know God is in control and always constant, even though our lives are sometimes anything but stable or calm.
Hang tough, brother. As the church, we’re all in this together, despite our different lives and circumstances. I know how much your past songs have lifted me and helped me through some tough times. I greatly appreciate your obedience when God has placed a song on your heart. To quote a line of yours back to you: “Don’t you get? I love you!”
Peace, bro.
Dawn~Canada says:
WOOhoo! I’ll wait like all the rest in eager anticipation. And like the rest, we will continue to pray for you and your family!
Linda S says:
I just read these entries several times. Thank you for taking the time to share. Depression is hard and confusing in a different way because of being a Christian. After 5 years, I still don’t get it, but your thoughts help to put my confusion into coherence. I’m surrounded by godly people who love me, but I’ve been confused, ashamed, and felt alone through this. It helps to know I’m not alone.
Rick Orrell says:
As a ‘survivor’ of depression, I can attest to the mentally and emotionally draining effects it brings…..not wanting to do anything, snapping in anger at people I dearly love…….but (maybe I should put that in caps) BUT, God was faithful to bring me out of the darkness and the suffocating night. I pray that you’ll taste the sunshine with a new palette and that your inspiration for new songs will burst forth, not as a geyser like “Old Faithful”, but as a great and might spring that knows no ends and continues to boil up with new ideas.
Love ya bro!!
Rick
Noelle says:
Hey Shaun,
what beautiful words and such an extraordinary picture of the church. Praying for you and I just wanted to let you know that I am too touched by your honesty and transparency.
Heather Villalta says:
Amazing! I love it!!!
Donna N says:
thank you for writing and giving us a view of the dark days. in one way or another, i wouldn’t be surprised if all of us could admit that we have walked into a sanctuary and desperately needed a Savior.
i have.
thank you for showing us His faithfulness!
daniel says:
love these words man. can’t wait to hear the music.