Leaving The Cul-De-Sac

I call the alcove where I live the cul-de-sac.  The commune that is Brody‘s street (and my sister-in-law’s), the circle of road one street over from ours?  That’s called the cult-de-sac.  Got that straight?  All right then, moving on.

We and the Redneck Neighbor are staying put in our cul-de-sac but the two homes between us are for sale.  This means two little girls Gabriella (age 6) plays with and one little boy I play with (he’s ten) every day are moving.  And that has me thinking about Tracy.

Tracy lived next door to me.  She was the kind of girl more at home making mud pies and building forts than putting ribbons in a Barbie’s hair.  Our clubhouse was made out of thorny bushes on the side of my house. It was called “Rosebud Tree House” and we wore matching hooded sweatshirts with our names ironed onto the backs by her mom.  We ran a detective agency and snooped on neighbors.  We had snack at my house or hers every afternoon.  She was my first kiss.  It was wet and gross.  She thought so too.  And we couldn’t figure out why the grown-ups on Dallas wanted to do that so often.

We promised we’d never kiss anybody else and if we had to get married when we got old we’d marry each other.

Then she moved to Colorado Springs.  I was seven I think, and devastated.  She sent pictures of Pike’s Peak and elk and a sunset over her neighborhood and I hoped she’d move back and that, if she didn’t, another friend would move in next door.  A couple with full-grown kids showed up in a moving truck eventually and still live there today.

Tracy came back to town in the eighth grade but we were never close again.  We outgrew the clubhouse and the detective business and kissed other people.

I wonder sometimes about Tracy, about what marks she left on my personality and what different turns I might have taken in life had she always lived next door.

I don’t think my kids are as close to their neighbors as Tracy and I were but the For Sale signs and the coming and going of realtors and perspectives buyers have created some confusion for them.  “Why is Jordan moving?  Is he getting a littler house?” Gresham asked this morning.

“No, buddy,” I explained, “people don’t just move when they need a smaller house.  Sometimes they get new jobs or just want to live somewhere different…like Colorado.”