On the plane ride to Kenya – or maybe it was a stop along the way – Kristen told me why she lived where she did – how she had been placed in suburbia to minister to the community there. How she wasn’t going to leave any time soon.
On a bumpy bus ride across Uganda Sophie laughed at herself (as she does often) for being so upset just before our trip together when her pastor had started saying some pretty radical stuff – talking smack about the American Dream and telling people to go do missiony things.
I recognized myself in them both. Who hasn’t feared, wondered, asked, whined as they boarded that plane for a foreign land…
What if God changes my life? What if nothing is ever the same again?
Fight it all we want but life does get changed by Jesus with brown hands braiding hair, bowls of rice shared, songs sung to a shared God, city dumps where children and vultures search side-by-side for daily bread.
Nothing is ever the same again. Our normal is gone.
The defense of life as we know it melts while walking the mud streets of a Kenyan slum at midday. Children jumping and running beside us yelling “How are you? How are you? How are you?” Eager to please, showing off the only English they know.
The resistance to change runs off us in the afternoon rains and runs beside the dirt path and darts off between rusted orange and brown homes.
We give up. Hands open. Slowly. And receive a new normal. The grace of change, dependence, challenge, the unknown, discontent, questions, opportunity to love and be loved in new ways in new places.
Kristen still lives in suburbia. So does Sophie. But they live differently. Hearts and minds forever changed in ways only God can take credit for. And what a ride that’s been.
From first world to third and now a foot in both.
Please take a few minutes to read Sophie’s story here and watch a video interview with Kristen here.
What if God changes your life? What if nothing is ever the same again?
This is the third world symphony.
Deb says:
Powerful words…
Praising God for those willing to say “yes” and be changed… allowing Him to change the world through them.
Shaun Groves says:
Me too. Thanks for reading, Deb.
Janna says:
Shaun… I loved hearing their stories, and I want to THANK YOU for the music on this CD. I can’t stop listening to it because it expresses so much of what my heart feels and wrestles with on a daily basis. I’m heading to Uganda again next month because it is my new normal, and this CD is just one more way God has been paving the way for this upcoming trip! Thank you…
Shaun Groves says:
So I’ll be traveling with you in a way? Cool.
It’s amazing me (and why am I surprised?) how many people these songs are resonating with. Humbling to know a song I wrote in the shower or in my front yard was intended for you where you are today all these months later. Thanks for the encouragement.
Nicci says:
Your words truly hit home for me as I read and soaked them in! I have been there and I have been there recently- scared to death of what was going to happen to “my life”. I traveled to Ethiopia for the first time in June and I will be returning next week. All I can say is that God has ruined my life for the ordinary and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Shaun Groves says:
Beautifully put.
Marian says:
“God has ruined my life for the ordinary…” Love this.
Love Ethiopia and the smell of coffee through grass huts in the morning…the wide smiles on brown cheeks that make rich the poverty. Have a safe trip.
Melissa Scott says:
Ever since my first trip to Kenya, the Holy Spirit has worn the face of a little African girl in a ragged pink party dress. The conviction I felt standing in a trash heap, listening to a sick, malnourished little girl sing about God’s blessings being all around has continued to “ruin” my life in amazing ways! When I begin to feel too content – or too discontent with what I have – her face appears in my mind and the Holy Spirit goes dancing through my heart with African rhythms to remind me to pray for “Enough.” Thank you for sharing your life and your music so that others might live!
Kris says:
going to read it now… I am sure there will be tears… God is working this old heart over good this week- for the better…
Cheri says:
Leaving for Kenya and Uganda next Friday. Going to meet my sponsored child in Kenya. Thanks to this Kenya trip I added to my Compassion family. When I see these photos I keep praying that I will be ready for what God has in store for me. Each trip I go on is different but this one and the intensity of the Mathare Valley has me praying even more. Blessings to you!
Shaun Groves says:
Congrats! I love being there when sponsors meet their sponsored children. My favorite thing to see on these trips of ours. Enjoy!
Karen says:
i grew up overseas, but God ‘wrecked’ me when I went back as an adult! Every time I get to “go” He does it again! I wouldn’t trade it for anything!
Dionna says:
Really touching post. I know exactly what you’re saying. I’ve felt it – I’ve been touched by it. I’ve feared it.
Kelli says:
Just an FYI – your posts and the many, many posts of the people that you have introduced me to have begun to twist and turn my insides into a totally different shape. I’m currently in a vortex of change and it isn’t just physical. The power of your words and so many others has begun to open the eyes (and heart) of this suburban minivan mom. I am not sure how to express the respect I have for all of you. But I do have an enormous amount of it. Your passion and vulnerability have inspired me to look hard at myself. And to seek harder for the Lord.
Opening clenched fists is hard. I know the fear really, really well.
Thank you.
laura@lifeoverseas says:
Shaun, I loved this post as you spoke about a new normal. For us, starting our second year here in Thailand, what was once so culturally-shocking has now really become normal. What once used to make me want to cry {not having access to food, traffic, heat, not understanding the language, etc} now just seems like life-as-usual. And I have been surprised at how comfortable even this life has become to me, and I am waiting for ways for God to shake me up, again. Because if left to myself, I just status-quo-it.
Oh, and, we have rubbed shoulders with lots of people from lots of organizations here in Asia and so many are not what they appear to be.{http://www.lauraleighparker.com/2011/09/when-missions-goes-hollywood/ }
But, I love the accountability and effectiveness of Compassion. You, obviously, already know this, but I love that as an organization it is so incredibly solid. Just a shout-out to it. Thanks for supporting it so well . . .
Jen Guarino says:
Every since I first read your blog a couple of years ago, God has been working on changing my heart. Thank you for showing me what being the hands and feet of Jesus really means. Your new album is moving my heart to places I’ve been scared of facing in the past but ready to see now. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you……